I am impatiently waiting for my quilt/duvet cover to finish drying, so I thought I'd take this opportunity to blog.
Weird thing for the past few day- I've been super tired and have been sleeping all the time. At first this was an exciting novelty that I hadn't experienced for....a very long time! Sleep without pills to knock you out? WOW! Anyways, I was thrilled by this at first but now it's just annoying....
Anyways
Lemme see.....what did I do today....
Well besides sleeping, I went to the Ottawa Dyke march which was funsies. Lots of cool people and adorable dogs. I just....wish I actually knew more people. Damnit, I guess I'll just have to socialize more. I just want to stop feeling so lonely all the time....especially when I'm in a crowd of people.
ED wise it's been a lot better, but still comes to haunt. I've been far less obsessive about the mathematics, but at the end of the day I usually freak out a bit and calculate the total caloric intake of the day and.....yeah, it sucks. I'm getting closer though.
I'm also a little (ok a lot) paranoid that this new undisordered life is causing me to get completely chubs. I weigh myself every time I see Toar, and the last few times have resulted in a few mini breakdowns. I hate how a number can change my mood so quickly.....but hey, I've been ruled by numbers for the last 5 years.
I just keep on having to tell myself it's worth it.
Peace, Love and Veggies,
Alex
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